Saturday, February 26, 2011

self-love.

gypsymoongifts.
if you have been reading my recent posts {first off, thank you for baring with me!},
you will know that i've been in a bit of a rut lately, lacking self-love
and in need of major overhauls in the self-esteem department.

i've been working hard at it and dressing up a bit more
and can honestly say, i'm feeling a lot better.
amazing what filling in your brows, new blush,
and a new bottle of essie polish
can do for your self-worth! plus...

living in love,
living in love always suits me
when i remember to do so.
living in love for me means loving those 
around me with everything i have 
and also loving myself {that's the hard part}. 
when i remember to live in love, my life is so much happier.

as a believer in signs, it was no surprise to me when recently
jennifer of gypsy moon gifts
contacted me with a product question...
as usual, i checked out her shop, before i replied
{does everyone do that or is it just me?}
anyway, i was happily surprised to find not only
a really cool, spiritual shop
with great products
{she sent me some amazing gypsy magic oil} 

and awesome 'feel good' photos, but something
that really intrigued me...and before i knew it,
i had purchased my first ever Reading.

my Reading arrived within a couple of days by email and was spot on.
i felt that her insight and sincere attention was totally speaking to me. 
i've read it several times and really like what she had to say. 
 i will definitely seek her guidance again. 

so, it's not big things that i've been doing, but rather small things,
like wearing 'cute' VS sweats when we go out to walk the dogs
or doing my make-up and wearing jewelry
with my jeans, tees and boots,
rather than just throwing on my Haviannas 
and running errands like i usually do.

i bought myself a few things, of course, shopping always makes me feel better!


i  purchased some gorgeous feathers for my hair from falling feathers.
the packaging and product is top quality. i love this etsy seller
and highly recommend her! the feathers alone make me feel free-spirited and sexy!
so, i'm a work in progress...one day at a time...
a few new dresses, some new make-up, a few yoga workouts, 
feathers in my hair 
and some much needed time to create...
and to live in love, you must give love, 
so lots of attention focused on those that i love so much!

i hope you are all living in love, because really, there's no other way to live.

Thursday, February 24, 2011

ocean colours.

 












  
these jewel colors taken from voque uk
march 2011 issue have me so thrilled.
especially because tenthings jewelry 
is all about these same gorgeous rich colors!

Tuesday, February 15, 2011

i was enchanted to meet you.


"There I was again tonight 

Forcing laughter, faking smiles 
Same old tired, lonely place 
Walls of insincerity 
Shifting eyes and vacancy 
Vanished when I saw your face 
All I can see, is that it was enchanting to meet you 

You're eyes whispered 'have we met?' 
Crossed the room, your sillohuette 
Starts to make its way to me 
The playful conversation starts 
Counter all your quick remarks 
Like passing notes in secrecy 
And it was enchanting to meet you 
All I can say was I was enchanted to meet you 

This night is sparkling 
Don't you let it go 
I'm wonderstruck 
Blushing all the way home 
I'll spend forever wondering if you knew 
I was enchanted to meet you 

One game question kept me up 
2 AM, who do you love? 
I wonder till I'm wide awake 
I know I'm pacing back and forth 
Wishing you were at my door 
I'd open up and you would say 'hey' 
It was enchanting to meet you 
All I know is I was enchanted to meet you 

This night is sparkling 
Don't you let it go 
I'm wonderstruck 
Blushing all the way home 
I'll spend forever wondering if you knew, ooh 

This night is flawless 
Don't you let it go 
I'm wonderstruck 
Dancing around all alone 
I'll spend forever wondering if you knew 
I was enchanted to meet you 

This is me praying that this was the very first page 
Not where the storyline ends 
My thoughts will echo your name 
Until I see you again 
These are the words I held back as I was leaving too soon
I was enchanted to meet you 

Please, don't be in love with someone else 
Please, don't have somebody waiting on you 
Please, don't be in love with someone else 
Please, don't have somebody waiting on you 

This night is sparkling 
Don't you let it go 
I'm wonderstruck 
Blushing all the way home 
I'll spend forever wondering if you knew 

This night is flawless 
Don't you let it go 
I'm wonderstruck 
Dancing around all alone 
I'll spend forever wondering if you knew 
I was enchanted to meet you 

Please, don't be in love with someone else 
Please, don't have somebody waiting on you"


taylor swift wrote this song after meeting adam from owl city.
and yesterday, his response.


i'm a girl absolutely smitten with love. this is amazingly sweet!

Sunday, February 13, 2011

love ruffles.




 

love moves you in the most unexpected ways.

i think it's interesting that love moves you 
in ways that you may not expect. 
i've been in love for over 24 years.
comfortable. content. committed. 
the luckiest girl. married to the love of my life.
a heart so full of love and happiness.
not something i really thought about too much. 
certainly not something i ever worried about.
sure of one thing and one thing only. 
this love was forever.



then suddenly, without much warning, 
unsettling thoughts.
change. fear. instability. loss. 
fear of the unknown. fear of change.

where did these unexpected feelings come from? 


while totally self-imposed, 
i find myself completely immersed in a fight to hold 
onto something that i can't imagine losing. 
and while, these thoughts of loss are all in my head, 
they are still very real thoughts. 
what if these life changes, change us? 

what if i have been too comfortable. too sure. 
too carefree. what if change changes 
the things i don't want to change.


lots of changes are happening in my life.
these changes are very positive and exactly 
what we, as a couple, have been dreaming of for many years. 
it's what we wanted. 
what we've talked about. what we've worked so hard for.
a different way of life. 
these changes are everything i have supported, cheered for, 
prayed for and wanted for us.
so why do these changes scare me so much? 

change is supposed to be good, right?

within two weeks, my life has taken a turn. 
i am at a crossroads. i am faced with a new direction. 
a new way to be. to feel. to behave. 
i  feel excited that these changes are about to take place. 
 i also feel threatened by them. my life is about to change.
it seems like an easy choice. 
of course, to feel excited rather than threatened.
it is the only choice. for me, it is a work in progress. 
a new place to be. 
something i never imagined. 
something i didn't expect.
something i didn't realize was going to be life changing.
something i didn't know was going to touch my heart so deeply.

so, with valentine's day here, i find myself 
completely, totally in love. 
the kind of love that throws you for a loop. 
the kind you feel when you first fall in love.
the kind that fills your heart and every thought, 
the kind that grows and feels sooo comfortable, 
the kind of love that sits heavy on your chest 
and makes you feel connected.
and then when you least expect it, 
feels new.


i'm going to roll with these changes. 
hold in my heart the visions of our dreams
of a forever life shared together.

i'm going to pray. i'm going to support. 
i'm going to show my love. i'm going to listen. 
i'm going to grow. i'm going to grow up!
i'm going to learn life lessons of love and change.
i am not going to fear.

i am going to live in love.
* * *
update ::
forever a believer in 'signs'...
after a walk on the beach
and a pizza dinner together with our son tonight,
we walked outside and saw this on a bench.
just about sums this post up, i think.


a few things i know for sure at this moment
love endures.
in order to change my life, i must first change my thoughts 
(it's that 'mind over matter' thing).
and above all,
i am crazy, crazy, crazy in love with this guy! 
i can't help it 
and 
sometimes love makes you a little crazy. 

Wednesday, February 9, 2011

lucky.


i am a lucky girl. i am in love with my best friend.