Wednesday, June 12, 2013

defining beauty.

I have been thinking about this quote 
since I saw it a few days ago, 
I realize that, as hard as I try, 
my definition of beauty 
is totally unrealistic at times.

I am quick to recognize 
the beauty in others.

But, for myself, I often equate 'my' beauty 
with how I see myself in the mirror. 
I know I have a pretty mind, 
a pretty heart, and a pretty soul, it's the 
other things that trip me up.

I sometimes look in the mirror or my reflection
and only see everything that has changed. 
I don't take notice of 
my green eyes, or clear skin, or red lips. 
I don't see the beauty. I see the changes.

I know that this is unhealthy, 
my beautiful mind 
tells me so.

My beautiful heart and soul
tell me to look deeper.
To steer clear of so-called perfect beauty
 and look towards 
women whose beauty is more
than skin deep.

So, when I'm listening, I do just that.

I read interviews with Ines de la Frassange.
She has an incredible outlook on getting older.
{She's sexy and she knows it}. 
I love what she has to share
found here.

Best wrinkle cure: 
What's wrong with wrinkles? 

Favourite jeans: 
At the moment J Crew's Boyfriends 

Best underwear: 
Not that "sexy" lingerie stuff that women 
are supposed to go mad over.  
I like a T-shirt in bed. My boyfriend doesn't, though

I look at images of Lauren Hutton. 
I think she's gorgeous.

I visit here and listen to 
Cindy's amazing views on pro-aging.
She truly loves being 62! She inspires me
so much! I want to completely 
adopt her mindset. It's a goal of mine.

This is why I blog, this is why I share.
I am on a personal journey.
To become who I need to be.

To abandon thoughts of being inadequate.
To truly learn to love myself, no matter what.
To believe him when he says, 
I am beautiful 
that I am exactly what he wants. 

To make his world beautiful, 
while at the same time, 
make mine beautiful, as well.

For a girl can only truly be beautiful 
when she knows she is.

I am beautiful.
{well, at least I'm working on believing that to be true}.


all images from pinterest


When all the world is spinning ‘round 
Like a red balloon way up in the clouds 
And my feet will not stay on the ground
You anchor me back down 

I am nearly world renowned 
As a restless soul who always skips town 
But I look for you to come around
And anchor me back down 

There are those who think that I’m strange
They would box me up and tell me to change
But you hold me close and softly say
That you wouldn’t have me any other way 

When people pin me as a clown
You behave as though I’m wearing a crown
When I’m lost I feel so very found
When you anchor me back down 


When all the world is spinning ‘round
Like a red balloon way up in the clouds 
And my feet will not stay on the ground
You anchor me back down

Friday, June 7, 2013

life lessons.

life's funny to me 
that when you get off track, 
for a few days, for a few months, 
however long, 
spirit has a way of pointing you 
back in the right direction.
my heart was broken. 
my mind had wandered.
my soul was lost.

...but, i'm back on track.

filling my 'loss of apatite' 
with the fuel it needs;
a spot of mindfulness,
a cup of reality,
a slice of forgiveness,
a bowl of happiness,
a plate of encouragement,
and a huge helping of love.

i'm making my way back 
to what truly makes me happy. 

being in love.
trusting in the universe.
and loving myself.

the trouble it might drag you down,
if you get lost, you can always be found.
just know you're not alone,
cause i'm going to 
make this place your home.

pretty simple stuff.

all images from pinterest.

Thursday, June 6, 2013

love more. worry less.

I'm kind of on a roll here lately,
so here goes...
today feels like a brand new day, 
something is different, a breakthrough of sorts
...last night it dawned on me 
that I have a choice...
it's something I've known, of course, 
but knowing about it 
and putting it in to action are very different. 

Today feels different. 

To move forward and not look back at mistakes, or events, that shape you, 
I think, is the best way to go, having said that, I will just say, in a nutshell, 
that my past experiences have shaped who I am in a very positive way 
{which sometimes gets buried deep down underneath a lot of hurt} 
and those same experiences have caused me to be super sensitive and fearful, 
this has been the unhealthy effect of what I have experienced.

So without going into the actual occurrences,
I'll just say that, today,
I am choosing happiness, 
I am choosing love over fear,
 and I am choosing to love myself.

The 'Love Who You Are' thing seems to be my hang up.
It has always been way too easy for me to compare, judge, 
and feel inferior in my lifetime, 
a life-long battle of not feeling good enough. 

I had let myself stray from the images and text that empower my self-esteem 
and had allowed thoughts of inferiority to take precedence.
When tragic and traumatic events occurred, in the past, and just recently, 
I could not find my strength. 
My mind reverted back to old thoughts and my heart was shattered. 
Subsequently adding to the negative thought patterns. 

But, today feels different.

With many patient conversations
{I love him for that}, 
daily therapeutic runs, a bit of retail therapy, 
and choosing a new way of thinking, 
I believe that the old thoughts are gradually being replaced,
 with new empowering  'moving forward' thoughts. 

I have a lot of work to do, but I also have a choice. 
It's with that choice that today feels different. 

Today is the day I choose happiness, for good, 
that I stop allowing the fearful thoughts to consume me. 
Today is the day that I choose to be the best version of myself, 
and to love myself for who I am.

all images via pinterest.